It's just weird that I miss you..I miss you being one of the funniest friends I had that even when you don't talk something about you makes me smile... I miss laughing my ass off with you... I miss being silly with you... I miss the out of this world hirit...I miss the imbento words...I miss myself feeling vulnerable and weak and scared and plain happy with just the thought of you...I miss the nerd in you...and I miss the entire person that you are... I know you that you are happy and floating on cloud 9 right now and I am happy because you deserve to love and be loved in return..just give me this right to miss you and that's more than I could ask for.

The whatever post

It's been a while...a long while since I've last updated this blog. I have been busy with a lot of stuff, mostly training stuff. Proud to say that everything paid off...won my first fight, gained new friends, got in to the weight that I've been dying to have...but somethings missing...I'm still lost...I still have indefinite plans. Got caught up in a situation where I have to choose between life long dreams and love..and as the person that I am, I opt in love instead. But I am happy of the choice I made, I am happy with the person I have and the person that I am. But there are times when I can't help thinking the what if's, but to hell with the what if's now.... I know I am happy and satisfied and that's what's important the rest depends to God and His will...if it really is His will for me to become the Doctor that I've been dreaming of since kindergarten, then I have faith that in the right time, He will give me another chance to fulfill that  dream, just not now. As for family, things are a little bumpy right now... Mom and dad are in the verge of calling it off..but I am still prayerful that my Lord will find a way to make things right. I was watching "How do you know" the other day and heard this line from George explaining what the play doh represents and it goes like this: " I've been keeping this thing as a reminder that we are all just a small adjustment away from making our lives work". True in it's very sense...but I'd say that God has His own ways on making our lives work according to His plans, will, and purpose designed especially for us. Ours is just to trust and obey and have faith that can move mountains despite the situation that we are facing. And as for me and my house...I surrender it all to you my Father.