Missing Out on Something? Not anymore!

I missed my friends in training..especially after today that I get to be with some of them and share the same pain during training. It makes me feel bad for not texting some of them or inviting some of them to train with me, guess Im just guarding my emotions. I hate being rejected..all the more, I hate being ignored. Once is enough, twice is too much. My attitude is that I don't want to drag people into something they are not really willing to do..give me excuses then fine, you will never hear anything from me. I just realized that I'm all alone in this which was depressing at first but as days pass by, I realized that I can no longer depend on people for that little piece of happiness and that I have to endure this pain of being alone. Anyway, It's just gonna be me inside the ring..no friends, no family, no pets (of course no pets!)..no one. My coach will be along the sidelines instructing me what to do. But sometimes, it feels good having a few people you can lean on for support. The day that I needed them the most was the day they weren't there and I guess, I just have to accept that they will never be there even in my big day. So yeah, screw it..I'm training alone unless someone volunteers his/her ass to train with me, until then, I'll find peace in my solitude.