I am the most pathetic slacker I have ever known...I start things, but don't continue them...take for example: 2 months ago I was enthusiastic at visitting the gym, I alternate running and lifting, not only that, I also watch my diet..but after getting really sick, I just happen to stop going to th gym! oh no..rewind..before that, things are real bitchy... I joined this volleyball team in our office..there's where my procrastination all started! Since I lack sleep, energy and time to stick to my routine..then I got off track. Believe me I was even trying to go back to dragonboat but again, i got demotivated because of those fucking volleyball games that I wasn't even given the chance to play..On top of that, boyfriend stayed at my place, actually he is literally living there already..and instead of having time for myself, I'd spend that time with him..I know, you'd probably say drag him along with me???but no! he'd rather stay at home with some movies to watch and we'll munch on whatever we can...he never wants me to be his gym buddy! I even asked him before to play badminton with me but like an asshole that he usually is, of course he declined...I know that I don't have to rely on people to succeed on my agenda..but I can't help it! I care so much that I just wanted them to be happy instead of me...My life is like a food chain...one must suffer in order for others to survive..It's like parasitism...I suffer, they survive...sometimes its commensalism..They survive..I don't get affected..rarely mutualism...both survives. point is, Im tired of this..but I can't just leave everything behind...