Checklist

MONDAY:

I will get some rest so I could be well prepared for the whole week. And remind TC to pay for the 1500 php.

TUESDAY:

I need to be at home so I could meet up the courier guy who will be picking up my passport requirements.

WEDNESDAY:

Withdraw my money from the bank and go update the freaking driver's license...apparently all my government issued Identification cards were way overdue.

THURSDAY:

Go to the bank to open an account for the bank draft

FRIDAY:

Go to UST and PRC to procure all the documents that I have to send to to PEBC Canada.

SATURDAY:

Pick up all the important reviewers

SUNDAY:

It is my right to rest!

MONDAY:

Personal Appearance to DFA

***Just the thought of all these things that I got to do makes me sick...bleh!

Ever since my dad found out that I could comprehend on a much higher level, he bagan teaching me the word responsibility..responsibility in all its shape and sizes! "You should be responsible for you grade, so study hard...you should be responsible for your money..so start saving..be responsible for the house so clean it up before we arrive...or be responsible in tieing your own shoe laces..be respopnsible if you get pregnant or if you get sick..." Don't get me wrong, I never thought of responsibility as a bad thing or something that would hurt me and put me to danger. It's just that sometimes responsibilities put me to test...a test of the hardest virtues in life such as patience, perseverance, and faith. I've been struggling for the longest time to master these virtues and practice them carelessly, but most often than not I find myself trying so hard to live it up, it's like a bad ass medicine, in spite of the taste and feel on my tongue, I endure it because I know it will make me better.

I've been so stressed out lately, I can literally feel my uterus and breast receiving much hormonal love which in turn makes me suffer in pain. The PEBC thing is again taking its toll on me. Other than my 9-10 hours of hell I spend at work, I also do some extra reading afterwards. And now that I've decided to go solo with the evaluation on January, I find myself lost in translation with the what to do's, which to purchase, when to submit, how to submit and what have you. I am not a bird brain but I fell like being one with all the hassle I got through day in and out. I am not complaining, it's just that I am tired. But I know I am left without a choice if I really think that what I am doing right now is for a bigger and brighter future ahead of me. Like I always said, I wouldn't want to be like the people who finds professional growth within the four corners of this hell...It's not even a job, it is a graveyard...you work like a horse, you earn money which other people think is too large (news flash: it is not..with the ever changing supply and demands) and you lack time to relax...its like 365 days all you have in mind is work..work that you don't get to enjoy. Seriously, you don't even get all the benefits you deserve even after retiring or resigning! Aside from the fact that it vaccums out all the intellect left in your brain, THIS job doesn't give out personal satisfaction at all, you know...the one when you go home smiling and feeling fulfilled even when your beat up tired or when you go home knowing that you've learned something new and challenging by day end...all these inspire us to go wake up the next day feeling all excited and tuned up to go back to work..this feeling could even go by everyday! But what the heck, does someone really care at all?

What ever I'm going through right now, I know that there'll be something good coming out of this. I just have to be more optimistic and organized most of the time, and keep the three virtues locked in my heart so I would'nt have a hard time looking for it. Maybe I should practice it all the time..Nice Idea.

FUCK YOU

APPARENTLY THERE'S A WORD CALLED CONTENTMENT THAT CAN EASILY BE FOUND AMONG THE PAGES OF A CHEAP DICTIONARY...YOU CAN ALSO GOOGLE IT UP..EASY AS 1,2,3..I just wanna fucking go home...

SHUFFLE ON!

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from
IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?Drinking for 11- Mad Caddies
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?7 years- saosin
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?Letters to you-finch
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?warrior-matisyahu
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?Got the life- Korn (yeah!!!)
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?Ms. Vandersanden- Split Habit
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?Im real- The starting line
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?The System- Funeral For a Friend
WHAT IS 2+2?Signal Fire-Snow Patrol
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?So sexy chapter 2( LIke this)- Twista ft. R Kelly
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?Movies- Alien Ant Farm
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?I'll Be Back on The Sun- Flee the Seen
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?You're Beautiful- James Blunt
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?Everything She Does is Magic- Sting and the Police
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?Adidas- Korn
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?Yugto- Rico Blanco
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?Like a Thousand Suns- Heaven Shall Burn
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?Conflict- Disturb ( di naman!)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?snesual seduction- snoop dogg
WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?A world So Cold- Mudvayne
HOW WILL YOU DIE?Tiger Lily- Matchbook Romance
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?dISMANTLE me- The Distillers
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?Through the Fire and Flames- Dragonforce
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?Stir it Up- Bob Marley
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?Beverly Hills- Weezer
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?Calling Dr Love- Kiss
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?Soft Return- Imago
IF YOU COULD WHAT MAKES YOU LGO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?Im just a Kid- Simple Plan
WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?Lakambini Bottom- Datu's Tribe
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?Tell myself Goodbye- Dead Poetic

I almost got late for work, that bed caught me off guard again and I haven't noticed that Im dreaming away on 9th cloud. Why do we have to go forth in life when everything is so inviting for us to just stay still and relax? The weather outside is very conducive to hibernate all day and the pillow is as soft as the cotton candy that is simply irresistable, yet I still need to drag my ass under that cold shower which actually gives me goosebumps from head to toe as the water drips down my hair to my skin. Eating dinner is another thing.It is tempting..but I opted not to because it'll consume 5-10 min of my so little time left and I cannot afford that loss, I would also be forced to brush my teeth which I have no plans to do so. I had 8 beautiful hours of sleep but it doesn't make any difference. I still feel restless as always. Adrenaline rush consumed all the energy I have stored over time, I think I have less left to go through the day.So I therefore conclude that this day will surely suck, I just know.

How can one be a complete asshole during times of grief and pain, at this very moment when the entire country is mourning for the loss of one of the legendary heroes of our time. And how do you justify to millions and millions of spectators not only here but also abroad that unabashed display of disregard on national TV? That you wanted your show to be cut off to pave way for the live streaming video of her wake when what you have clearly said means absolutely otherwise? Oh yeah..you are a personified star...you own your own yacht right? and you can mislead women by the money that you shove to their asses? How many kids have you had now? perhaps countless...why do I care! I dont even bother watching your nonsense TV show...don't get me wrong, I like the concept but not the host...All you do is either abash or harass the people you work with as if you own them, are you the one signing off their paycheque? And do you genuinely care about the people around you? I was 1 month old then when the people power emerged...I knew nothing about it, I just heard how courageously Madam Coazon Aquino led our nation to fight for its freedom..I learned as well that she re-structured our dying country, she picked us up from the thrash that were thrown into...she nursed our wounds when she herself was wounded by the loss of her betterhalf...YOU should have known that better! You were what...20..21ish by then? Shame on you...watch what you have said..http://www.youtube.com/w
atch?v=JNTy6sM42iw and maybe then you will realize the pain you have caused to the people who loved her even if they haven't known her personally...people like me and all those thousands of Filipinos who mourned with the Aquinos...Watch what you're saying....

on a much lighter note....I LOVE TRAVIS BARKER...he rocks!

Life is short..so short that you wouldn't even notice that you wither by the day, or that you are terribly sick that tomorrow the whole world will be watching for your wake on national TV...reality is hard and cold and it'll hit you like a baseball bat right smack your head. So live, laugh and love every second of your most precious time, because you can never bring back what you've lost...live it with unuttered dignity coz you'll be surprised with how many lives you've touched..and on the day of your wake, they will all remember you.

May God rest your soul late president Corazon Aquino...I maybe 2 months old when you called every Filipinos to get out of their comfort zone and start fighting for that democracy that has been and will always be rightfully ours..I maybe an eagle behind bars right now if none of that took place..if not for you. I may not watch any of your tributes on national TV but I remember you with my heart... Thank you Ma'am and enjoy a never ending life with our Lord and Saviour...

Today is Monday, another 9 hours of immersion back in hell...start of a new PM and people are so fucking irritating...didn't get that leave for Friday approved...said it was too late to have it filed..I DIDN'T KNOW YOU HAVE TO FILE IT 2 TUESDAYS BEFORE THAT FRIDAY...WHAT KIND OF POLICY IS THAT? but anyway...I must get it on Monday next week...Weekend...oh weekend..I missed my weekend...My idea of a great weekend is staying at home, watching chuck or supernatural..or going to the gym...running...reading a good book...listening to good music...apparently my weekend is a thrash...went out with my buddies..drank beer...went clubbing right after...went home at 4am....nothing cool with that...I swear I can still hear doogsh-dagsh-dogsh-dagsh music, i mean NOISE... banging in my head the day after, absolutely uncool! How can people stand that kind of place? Some say that one of the so many ways for you to release stress is by going out to clubs, dancing to the beat of trans whatever you call it music if you ever call it music, and meeting random people....I think I'll just stick with the other so many ways of relieving stress than clubbing...I wasted 100php of my precious money to think that my next pay cheque will be available by Thursday morning...I tried to look at things on a much brighter perspective but I sure don't see any..o shit... I swear I will never give out my weekend! Ok, an hour and a half has gone by and I didn't have any completes yet, not a single interview...Fuck this day...I bet its gonna continue till day ends...Good luck poor Katie