Salvation

I find it difficult to juggle my mind when I have to write or talk about something good about my life...the words doesnt't come out right. Ironically, its hard to find the inspiration to do so when its just there right around the corner poking me in the eye yet I couldn't even see...these emotions should be the pillar of these ramblings yet it doesn't come tumbling down. However, with all the energy in me, I'll give it a shot.

A few months back, I've been blinded by the overwhelming pain of too much expectancy and failed reality so as a result, I turned out being ungrateful..with what I have..with what has been given to me..with what has been left of me, I despise it from the pit of my gut.I am the epitome of self pity, thinking I had noboody to run to when Im wounded and nothing to claim and be proud of. I thought less of myself and In that dark corner of my world, I lie wide awake..little do I know of what future lies ahead of me,I careless!But I am a gem..a precious one. For by grace I am saved..by faith and not by sight. I am elected...i am chosen, and this I have to be proud of. And whatever I have done in the past and whatever I will be doing in the future, I have that security that will never be stripped away from me. I am His child therefore I am persecuted.
Now it all makes sense...its there right around the corner and I haven't seen it. This gift I have. And I am sorry..forgive me for not being me lately.