...and it ends here

I am a woman of passion...if I happen to decide on doing something, I make sure to put all my time and heart in it. But, once I see a single flaw, I tend to get disheartened then I start noticing all the negative stuff and then quietly I disappear into thin air. Since I'm engaged to the "sport" for about 8 months now, I have met and kept people that I thought would make good company...then as time went on, I invested in them emotionally...to cut this crap short, I started thinking and caring for them...and yesterday, I dunno...I happen to decide to just end all the caring...people who doesn't want to be cared should not be cared at all and I know that they won't give a shit if I care or not so yeah...it all ends here. Moving on,  I shall master the "art of indifference" and put it into practice for the time being then after this one big shenanigan on March, I will start moving away from the scene...then  slowly and quietly, I'll disappear into thin air. If I can remember correctly, this happened in the past but I never learned from it..it's like a vivid bad dream playing over again...What the hell Katie? When do you ever start accepting the fact that you are not living in a rainbow painted world with carousel rides and fluffy clouds and cotton candies scattered all over? When do you start believing that this world is far from being perfect...that people can hurt you anytime, anywhere and at any cost? You just would  never learn won't you? :(( So to you ...and to some of you...I'm sorry that I cared too much...I should have read between the lines early on.